well i know no one looks at this thing any more but i just need to vent so. these past few weeks have by far been the hardes in my life and things just arent going my way in any shape or form at all. a few weeks ago me and neen desided to take a break which i thought was a good idea at the time but now i relize just how much it is killing me inside and out. every day with out her feels darker and scarier and i just dont know what to do latley. now she is in a relationship with someone else and i feel as thought my heart is being riped out of my chest infront of my face and it is killing me cause i know day by day iam loseing the person that mean the most to me in my life. the person who has always been there and i have always been there for to. and now all i can do is seat and wait to see how the rest of my life is going to be but i cant stand it any more ever where i look ever where i go all i can see is what we have dont together and how much we have grown together but my world is falling apart around me now and i dont know what to do any more someone lease help befor i lose it.

ok so today just gets better and better got out of school today and went snowboarding with my dad and chris then when we were on the way home i got a phone call telling me that i am going to suny maretime witch is the collage that i was dieing to get in to so thats that i am going to bed good night lmfao